Wednesday, August 17, 2011

New Friends

I've known them about two and a half months. It seems like I've known them for years. We spend practically every second together... class, library, sonic runs. We share struggles, prayer requests, victories and have formed quite the little 46 person family. And like true family, there are moments when your little sister drives you crazy, moments when you think your parents are idiots, and moments when you are sure you don't belong and must have been adopted. But in the end, you love them. 

My community in the last 3 months has changed drastically. I've had to say no to so many events and fun activities because of school. There have been major frustrations. But there have also been plenty of days that I wouldn't trade. School friends have rallied around and become my new community. Its been a difficult transition at times but moments like these make it a million times easier...
Sitting at Chick-fil-A, homemade birthday cake, laughing at something inappropriate I've said. 

Thursday, June 16, 2011

He Is

You are the Victor, 
You've known no defeat
So I'll lay down my armor 
& let you battle for me
Alpha, Omega
beginning & end
You are and will be
as You have always been
Jehovah Jireh-
the God who provides
Lover, Pursuer-
who calls me His bride

Sunday, March 13, 2011

The Fullness of Time

Gal 4:4-6 But when the fullness of time had come, God sent forth His son, born of a woman, born under the law, to redeem those who were under the law, so that we might receive adoption as sons.

Reading this verse that I've read many times before, today this phrase jumped off the page to me. Wait, time has a fullness? Its never something I've thought about before. Time is a crescendo building in fullness until God, in His perfect timing, brings it to fruition. The puzzle pieces are being worked into place, the preparations are being made, the cup is being filled waiting for time to reach its fullness. 

And this is no small thing. The verse describes the fullness of time with regards to our redemption. There was an exact time for us to be rescued. Not a moment too soon, not a second too late.

And if God so perfectly orchestrated the timing of Christ, there must also be a fullness of time for each part of the story He writes for me. Knowing that time cannot be rushed until it has reached its fullness provides an overwhelming sense of peace. God is intentional about the precise timing of all things. Time is out of my hands and completely in His. Be patient and wait until the fullness of time has come. 

Sunday, February 6, 2011


And for the first time in what seems like an eternity, I sat still and listened. The rain pouring down outside, nothing but the sound of the water. No cars, no street noise, no television, no internet, no music, no voices. Just the rain. Louder with each drop. In the silence, it is soaking into me. My soul longs for a pouring in. My heart aches to be nourished and renewed. I am thirsty. The sweet melody as it comes down, the rhythm like a lullaby. My cup is dry, every bone is weary. I need the Spirit to pour over me. I want to be rained on and filled. Psalm 42:2 - "My soul thirsts for God, for the living God."

Here I am, on my knees
Rain pouring down, fighting to believe
That somehow this is your best for me.
This is your best for me.

It seems my eyes have looked away
My faith is shaky, prone to stray
and I don't even have the words to pray.
Tell me the words to pray.

My heart is thirsty, my cup is dry
My mind's grown weary of whens and whys
and I'm needing to hear your lullaby.
Sing me your lullaby.